Tuesday, December 22, 2015

Holiday Emotions

Not sure what it is about the holidays but they always seem to bring on their own set of emotions from joy to sadness. Even Christmas songs can induce such a range of feelings.  Maybe it's because it's a holiday with such deeper meaning.

Feelings of love, magic and wonder fill the air.  As well as a hope for miracles and faith in what we cannot see.

Plus with a new year quickly approaching think many begin to review their lives as well.

This year have more on my mind, in turn feel overwhelmed by emotions.  Some health stuff has popped up that has me feeling concerned and distracted from the normal festive feeling of the holiday.  The apprehensive feeling is taking away some of the joy normally felt during the holiday season.  It's been an unusual Christmas between the weather and house issues.  Haven't even decorated the house like we normally would.

The holidays sometimes also bring on a sense of excited anticipation that can be a let down when something doesn't go as we expect or hope.  Never been like that with gifts per say until meeting the man.  Usually I'm happy to receive any kind of gift, especially the small thoughtful ones. But with the man there would be things I started dreaming he would surprise me with, only to be let down when those things didn't happen.

It was not a feeling I was used to, in fact it took away from the festive holiday feelings. It's different I suppose with people we care about as think there is a part of all of us that hopes the special people in our lives give us something meaningful.  Learned it's often times better to try not to have expectations.  More important to focus on the real meaning of the holiday than get caught up in the gifts.  Plus there really is more fun in giving then receiving anyway.

Of course when the Christmas songs come on the radio though the nostalgic feelings always surface. Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas always brings on the tears.  Thinking back to the childhood days when Christmas seemed so incredibly magic.  Spending it with family, especially extended family was something we all took for granted.  If only all those we shared our Christmases with back then were here to celebrate with us still.

Hard to even believe this will be the second Christmas without our little Westie Angel.  The emotions of the holidays can feel so raw.  While appreciating those here with us it's hard not to miss those who are not.  What's holidays or even life without those we love to share it with.  That's what makes it so special.

The feelings of the holiday season truly are unlike any other. We must feel them all, yet also find a way to rejoice in the true meaning of the holiday.  Christmas is not as much about opening our presents as opening our hearts.  It's about giving, dreaming, hoping and believing.

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