Friday, May 16, 2014


I've always pondered and wondered about life, probably more so than the average person.  At times, it's actually kept me up, not to mention drives me crazy.  There are questions that may not get answered in this lifetime such as....How was earth created?  Why do bad things happen to good people? Why do people and animals have to suffer?  Why does bad/evil exist and where does it come from?  Do we each have a purpose?  And the biggest question of all do God and heaven exist?

These questions have become even more prevalent after losing my little Angel a week ago. To see her suffer broke my heart.  To know that any animal or human suffers invokes the same feeling.  And always leaves me questioning why? 

Wish I could say I had unwavering faith like some, but truth be told the rough moments of life tend to test mine.  Though I try to hold steady in my beliefs and faith there are times where a skeptical side seems to emerge.  That's when those bigger questions seem to come to surface such as....

Why would God let bad things happen to good people?  It's in those moments of suffering where it seems easy to turn away from believing in God and life after earth.  Feelings of anger, anxiety, depression, fear, hopelessness, hurt, sadness, sickness, etc., seem to take hold making it hard to feel, find or see good.  Such moments can rock the soul to it's core.

But then to step outside where the beauty and complexity of nature overwhelms....things such as the warmth of the sun, glow of the moon, glistening of the stars, uniqueness of flowers, grass and trees or the unconditional love of an animal or even the intricacy of the human body.  In those moments the soul seems guided back to God and the possibility of good.  Because looking at the intrinsic ways of nature how could one not believe in God or a higher power?

To think of how nature came to be, the little miracles we may not even be aware of.

Miracles that in my opinion could not possibly have come from some big bang, evolution theory but from a higher being such as God.  How God or a higher power came to be is even more mind boggling to ponder. 

And reading some of the astonishing near death experiences that others have to share is truly enlightening and mind opening as well.

May not have the answers to my questions.  Yet believe all any of us can do is to keep living life, do the right things, be kind, speak or stand up for what is right, treat others as we want to be treated, treat our planet and inhabitants with respect, focus on becoming the best possible souls we can, listen to intuition, follow the heart, focus on strengths and talents, find a purpose, help each other, develop strong morals and values, etc. Some how the world needs to peacefully work together.  The world is only as good as we make it right?
When I step outside and find things like this in the midst of our hanging basket, well it's hard not to believe. And maybe what we think of as random actually has some deeper meaning or purpose? 

Maybe this little robins nest is a sign?  Could my sweet, little soul mate Angel be trying to tell me that life goes on and so must we?  Maybe.  Hope and pray that one day I will be reunited with my little Angel and  understand  those answers to my questions

Truth is, even in those intense moments of questioning life.  The moments we feel lost, hurt, in pain or feel as if we can't go on especially without our loved ones....we are given no choice but to.  That is life, and the mystery of it as well.

Einstein said it best "there are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle".  And questions or no questions life simply goes on.

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