Monday, October 31, 2011

Monday Musings

 Happy Halloween!

The Halloween orange lights are a glow , candy fills the bowl,  the aroma of pumpkin spice candles fills the house and the chill of the October air can be felt. 


Though we some how didn't find a moment to carve pumpkins this year, the little one did get a new costume.

  As we looked at various costumes such as pumpkins, cows, lady bugs, and frogs it was a tough decision.  So to support her tv sports obsessed, loving daddy she wanted to be a cheerleader this year.  She is thinking it might get her a few more treats! : )

Sunday, October 30, 2011

Soul Sunday

Courage doesn't always roar.  Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, "I will try again tomorrow.

Courage is the soul of virtue.

Courage is not living without fear.  Courage is being scared to death and doing the right thing anyway.

Courage is the discovery that you may not win, and trying when you know you can lose. 

Oprah recently started a segment on her network titled Super Soul Sundays.  The segments are meant to nourish the mind, body, and spirit.   Personally I feel it's a wonderful idea, as I think this world needs more shows that help to inspire, encourage, and provide a positiveness to counter all the negative stuff not only on tv but that we each encounter on a daily basis.

This is where my inspiration came for my Soul Sunday blog and I hope maybe if others somehow find my blog they will join in as well.  Let's try to help make this world a better place, one small step at a time.   What better way then to simply pass it forward and fill our blogs with inspiration each Sunday. Thanks for reading blessings!

Saturday, October 29, 2011

Snow In Philly

Is it Fall or Winter?  Here in Philadelphia snow has over taken the beautiful Fall Foliage.   And this is no little snowstorm.  Oh no this is a nor'easter filled with ice and snow!

 Need my winter coat instead of my light weight rain gear.

Halloween lights with snowing falling.

What better than home baked vanilla chip cookies.

Hoping the weather warms up and Fall comes back soon!

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Thursday Thoughts

"You must listen to your own heart, for it will never lie to you"

My sister sent me the above quote this week.  A week which has not exactly been easy.  Oh I've mentioned the dizziness that has taken over my life in quite a few posts, by now I'm sure you've grown tired of it...I know I sure have!

This week I went to a neurologist, who I was told by another doctor, is an expert in the area of dizziness/vertigo.  Honestly the whole experience left me wondering what one considers an expert.  As this doctor had not a clue as to what is causing my dizziness, he mumbled a lot, and made me feel completely uncomfortable.  So without any real testing, didn't even look at the mri I had brought with me, the appointment ended with him handing me a script  for klonopin which he informed me I might have to be on for a long time.  Hmmmm....

So he doesn't know what caused it, why I have it, or anything of that nature but he feels comfortable prescribing a highly addictive drug that is only supposed to be used on a very short term basis.  None of my questions were answers, he only said he felt my vestibular system in the brain was in overdrive/out of control and it needed to be suppressed.  Could be from numerous things....injury, disease, virus, nerve damage, etc., okay so shouldn't that be investigate more. 

Both ear specialist told me they felt suppressing the vestibular system could make the dizziness last longer and create more eventual problems.  And both ear specialists felt there was something else going on in the brain that needed further evaluation and testing through a neurologist.

I left his office feeling bewildered.  With all the technology we have there still remains such a black hole when it comes to many a medical condition or symptom.   And I feel very uncomfortable with the idea of taking any highly addictive substance for the long term, especially one that will have to be increased with time.  And for which he admitted when it would needed to be withdrawn might be a difficult process as well. 

What doctors fail to mention is it can be a hellish process.  They fail to mention that many of the side effects or withdrawal effects from medicine can make it worse or be worst then the actual original problem.  I know individuals who got hooked on prescription medications, when you see someone go through that, it makes one a lot more cautious when it comes to certain kinds of medicine.  It's a very fine line. 

Overall, his lack of explanation for anything I asked left me with a bad feeling. 


It's moments such as these in life where I feel we need to listen to our hearts.  We need to listen to those whispers that life gives us, instead of just blindly following the advice of others that might not be right for us.   Our intuition speaks if we listen closely enough, and I think it is that little intuitive feeling we must let guide us sometimes.  In another words if something doesn't feel right don't do it.  

In this case, I personally feel I need to really research what is the best path to follow here.  I need to find healers who make me feel comfortable, who I feel I can trust, and who will respect my beliefs as well.  If that means third and fourth opinions so be it, as this is my body and I have to live in it.  I want to explore all areas, avenues, treatments, essentially whatever feels right.  As I've learned in the past what's most important is to follow the heart, listen to intuition, research, research, research and somehow make the very best informed decisions possible from all that.  

And so those are my thoughts for today, and may the heart lead me to what's best for me.  (yeah I know it's probably not going to be easy but then again is anything)  

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Woof Wednesday

Welcome to Woof Wednesday, please meet Posey, a Westie/Schnauzer mix.
Sweet posey is just one of the best behaved little dogs, she is approx 3 yrs old and 15 lbs, she is quiet and just as sweet as can be, she gets on well with the other rescues, but prefers sleeping in her doggie bed or going out on walks, she is not a big lets play dog, she is just a wonderful dog and will make a great companion.

Sweet posey is just one of the best behaved little dogs, she is approx 3 yrs old and 15 lbs, she looks like a westie/schnauzer mix, she is quiet and just as sweet as can be, she gets on well with the other rescues, but prefers sleeping in her doggie bed or going out on walks, she is not a big lets play dog, she is just a wonderful dog and will make a great companion.

The Chi Society of CT, Glastonbury, CT

{Please keep in mind a dog is a lifetime commitment. They need attention, love and time just like we do. In addition, adding a pet to the family does cost money in the way of food, health care,training,etc. So before adopting make sure you are willing to make that kind of commitment and have the resources to do so.}

*If you want to be apart of "Woof Wednesdays" email Lauren at [] or leave a comment! We would Love to bring you on board!

Tuesday, October 25, 2011


The only thing we have to fear is fear itself.  

I believe that anyone can conquer fear by doing the things he fears to do, provided he keeps doing them until he gets a record of successful experience behind him. 

These two quotes by Eleanor and Franklin Roosevelt often come to mind when I am in the midst of overwhelming fear.

While deep down some where inside of me I know them to probably be true, in the midst of fear, well I sometimes lose faith in those very beliefs.  It's one of those....easier said then done, things of life.  

I fully admit to having moments in life where the fear I feel, feels like it is going to swallow me whole.   Obviously, I dislike such moments.  And you would think that somehow the mind could just rationalize or find enough logic somewhere in those type of situations to make everything better.  But sometimes no matter how much I tell myself to not let the fear take control, to not let the fear take over....well it simply does.  

And I very much dislike the fact that I am even fearful of certain things. As I feel that fear too often takes control or has the potential to make me lose sight of the happiness or joy that life has to offer as well.  Actually that probably bothers me the most. 

Today is no exception, as I wait for this appointment with the neurologist the supposedly renown ear specialist recommended I am filled with a mix of emotions, the predominant one....fear.  Scared what he will find, scared of what he won't find, scared he might not have an answer or solution, scared that I will be stuck with this dizziness and it's side effects, scared I might not ever feel normal again, scared of the tests he might want to run, and so on. 

I wish I could say I looked fear in it's face and stared it down, but for now it's more like I look fear in it's face and weep like a baby.  Honestly that is how I feel like one big baby when I don't feel well.   It's as if all my strength, courage, hope, and any other good emotion just crumbles like a cookie into a pile of crumbs.  Okay that analogy just made me a little too hungry for cookies. ha

Anyway, this morning as I await my appointment, the ride that will bring on even more dizziness, the tests that may await me, and all the other not so fun stuff I am trying hard to just understand the fear I feel.  I used to think I was fearless but as more difficult challenges of life came into my world I learned this was not true, but I think I also am learning that in the midst of fear are many a lesson I might not have learned had it not been for that very fear I felt.

Though I have no concrete answers or solutions when it comes to fear just yet, I do think life has things to teach us and maybe, just maybe, we need to feel fear to learn some of them.  Who knows for sure.

But talk about coincidences as I am writing this blog I get a photo message from my sister, an old clip board of hers that we used to post positive messages when we were younger.  Long behold at the top of them all "focus on where you want to go, not what you fear".  Amen.

Monday, October 24, 2011

Monday Musings

Monday.....oh why does this day seem to arrive quicker than any other?

And today hasn't exactly started off as I hoped.  Literally half a hour into being awake a dizzy spell hit.  Oh boyyyyyyy.

But let's put that aside for a moment.   As I did manage to food shop with the man on Friday night, something neither one of us looks forward to.   He wants us to buy enough food in one shopping trip to last 5 weeks, makes for some challenging shopping and not to mention two carts.  Surprisingly it usually works other than having to pick up perishables such a milk and vegetables in between. 

Saturday was a fun family party.  Oh even though I might not have been feeling hundred percent my niece has a way of injecting joy into life.  In fact haven't giggled or laughed like that in a while.   We adults should take lessons from kids, they just do what makes them happy.  We danced, colored, played school, wrestled, tickled, sang, and  had plenty of silly moments.  

After spending all day being a kid though, bed never looked so good, and to my surprise as I flipped channels Twilight Eclipse happened to be starting.....ahhhh a good love story to cap off a fun day.

Sunday, tried to do some computer work but a dizzy spell put the breaks on that.  So I found the coziest blanket, turned on the Red Zone, and our afternoon become a snuggle watching football fest with some naps in between.  And Tebow won his first game as the starting QB for the Broncos!

And how it is already Monday I don't know.  I want the weekend back, to be surrounded by the ones I love.  That is the worst part of Mondays in my opinion.  The house feels so empty without the man.  Or the little texts from my niece.  And phone calls from the family.   Plus with this whole dizziness well Mondays and weekdays have a whole new feel to them as I tend to get a little ancy stuck at home.   But.....

Putting all that aside I guess Mondays, or any day for that matter, is what we make it.   So I remind myself to smell the flowers, and appreciate the little things that often times bring the most joy.

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Soul Sundays

The wisest men follow their own direction. 

Listen to the soul.  Follow your heart.  Ask, Seek, Hope, Pray, and have Faith. 

Many times the direction will not always be clear, don't give up.

Follow the direction that brings the most genuine joy, happiness, laughter, love, fun, and goodness to not only your life but those around you as well.   As the motto says live, love, laugh!

I took the road less traveled by, and that has made all the difference. 

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Rude Dude

Rudeness is the weak man's imitation of strength.

I have often wondered if people even realize when they are being rude or displaying rudeness?  In our society I'm not so sure anymore, as I think what many might consider rude, many others don't or haven't a clue as to what rude even is.

There is a part of me that feels rudeness is directly related to selfishness, as often times than not it seems the individuals who think of themselves more than others seem to display a high level of rudeness at times as well. 

Unfortunately, there are those who think they are better than others, or their time more valuable, or whatever else. These individuals tend to be so wrapped up in their own worlds, what's best for them, etc, that they don't even see themselves as being rude.   And of course there are other reasons as well that might cause people to be rude, such as those who aren't having a good day, not in a good mood, just got informed of bad news, have unhappy lives,etc..

Whatever the case though, what I have never understood is why people want to waste time being rude?  Life is short, and what can one possibly gain from being anything less than kind.  Besides the fact that how we treat others has a ripple effect as well. 

You see today I experienced rudeness first hand, someone I actually know was very rude, not only did it feel uncomfortable to experience but I felt such a loss of respect for them.  And I felt sad for them that they revealed they are capable of such unkindness and childish behavior.   Yet it also reminded me of the poor communication skills that can also be the culprit behind rudeness too. 

How do we deal with others displays of rudeness, that's the real question.  

Only one answer truly comes to mind, and that is to rise above their pettiness behavior.  Don't let their unkindness or rudeness bring you or anyone else around them down.  And don't let them get away with it, call them out on it.  Ask them why.  Hard to do for sure, but what other choice do we have other then to bring ourselves down to their level, which isn't worth it. 

There is a saying "two wrongs don't make a right", and in this case that could hold true.  And so if you too come across rudeness today, smile in it's presence, offer up a prayer, send thoughts of kindness and love to the rudeness and/or individual displaying it, and hope that your ripple of kindness will outshine theirs by miles, and maybe even provide them with an enlightening aha moment!

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Quality Shows

I've never been a huge tv watcher maybe it's because I never found many shows able to hold my attention, or all that interesting.   But living with the man who very much loves tv, I've experienced first hand how ridiculous negative many of the tv shows are these days.   I was tired of the cattiness, bickering, negativity, meanness, superficialness, violence, bullying humor that many a show I come across seems to contain. My neighbors next door choose not to even have cable and  many a day I can clearly understand why.

And so as this Fall season opened I wanted to try and see if I could find shows actually worth watching, that added something positive to life rather then negative.   And so far I've come across a few.

I was happily surprised with Oprah's new network and to stumble upon her Life Class series.  It makes one think and provides a little inspiration as well.  I think the only change I would like to see is less flashbacks from old Oprah shows and more of her talking about the actual life lessons.  As the quotes and thoughts she has are rather profound. And it's on every night at 8.  Also found her Soul Series on Sunday just as enlightening.  Her new network is definitely worth checking out.

And being I am home during the day , as I am right now, I felt compelled to check out The Chew.  Again another great show.  Though it focuses mainly on food it's great.  Each individual has their own personality, area of expertise.  They are all a little bit quirky but yet each exudes such passion for food and cooking.  Great ideas for eating healthy, entertaining, and easy recipes!

We both enjoy American Pickers, a reality show about two men, who travel the country in search of unique, old items.  Guess much like Antique dealers.  It's interesting the places they go, the people they meet, and the history behind the stuff they find. 

And would also recommend others shows like Man vs Wild that takes a rather cute Bear Grylls across the world, puts him in extreme environments/situations and then he explains how to survive.  Man,Woman,Wild is a similar type show but features a husband and wife team. 

On to two new dramas.  The first Revenge, yes the name doesn't sound positive and many of the main characters actions might not be considered that either but if you look deeper there are many lessons to be learned from the show, and that how we act, what we do eventually does come back to

The Gifted Man, this show is great.  Given it was put on Friday night slot I'm hoping it makes it because it has a great theme and message within each show.  The show has the ability to make one really think about life.  Plus, Patrick Wilson who stars as the main character is rather nice to look at too.  :)

Haven't exactly found a comedy that I find even remotely funny like back in the Seinfeld days, then again I haven't got a chance to check out Modern Family yet either.  And from what I hear it's a great comedy about family and life.   Still would like to add a comedy to the mix as we could always use more laughs. 

When it comes to news I think World New Tonight and Nightline on abc feature some great stories.  Their reporters such as Chris Cuomo, David Muir, Bill Weir, Bianna Goldryga, JuJu Chang, Dianne Sawyer, Bob Woodruff and many others go out of their way to find stories that are not only informative but enlightening.  Used to like Good Morning America but with the addition of Josh Elliot and Lara Spencer I feel the quality of the stories, reporting, and show has dimished greatly.

Anyway, it's just nice to once in awhile stumble across shows filled with positive vibes.  I'm sure there are more waiting to be found but for now this is a sample I feel is worth checking out.   And if you stumble across this post today please feel free to leave a comment about any other great shows worth checking out as well!

Monday, October 17, 2011

Monday Musings


So even though the man drives me nuts with his obsession of sitting on the couch watching tv all weekend, I admit come Monday I miss him.  :)  

Yesterday I actually got him out of the house for almost 2 hours, oh it felt so good to just be out!

Though it wasn't without complaints, he complains if he has to go to more then one store, if it takes too long, he can't understand why we go to different stores for different things or to get good prices, and then of course there is the rush to get back home to computer/tv! haha 

Oh he can be a handful as he isn't the most understanding. So yes I had to listen to him complain but if it gets us out of the house on the weekends I'll deal with it.    Anyway....

Today is a beautiful sunny day in Philadelphia, so instead of staring at a computer screen which I really should not be doing a lot of anyway I think I will try to enjoy the warm weather before the cold stuff moves in.  I am not a fan of the cold weather, cold weather in my opinion equals hibernation.

Wish I had someone to sit on the porch with today and simply just chat with.  :)

It's Monday, and yes the start of a busy work week for many but let's all remember to smell the flowers along the way as well!


Sunday, October 16, 2011


Last night as I snuggled with Angel, trying to watch Limitless I kept wondering to myself is this what happens to the weekends when you get older?

What I mean by that is, our weekends feel like those commercials for the Venza, the ones where the kids think they have exciting lives all the meanwhile they are just staring at their computers and tvs while their parents are out truly living life.  Those commercials are great.

There are moments I think an intervention between the man and our tv might be good.  Fridays, Saturdays, and Sundays have become a routine of simply watching tv all day and night.   Oh wait, I should give credit where credit is due....the man did agree to run errands or do something for a few hours on Sunday. (but still some days it feels rushed as deep down he would rather be sitting on the couch watching tv)

And from all the tv, I've become accustomed to all the male orientated commercials like cialis/viagra which make me wonder maybe a few of those would spice things up a little on the weekends? lol  Or all the low T commercials makes me wonder if my man is lacking in testosterone, hence his low energy or desire to do anything? lol   Those Living Social commericals have inspired me to sign up, hoping maybe they will inspire us to try new things if the price is discounted like they claim.  And all those commercials Chilis and other restaurants always leave me hungry wanting a plate of nachos!

Even with this dizziness I game to try new things. (not being able to drive is probably even fueling this desire and need more because I'm a little stir crazy at this point from being home all week)

My sister and brother in law go out more than us and they have a child.  My parents do too. Then again I grew up with parents and grandparents that did everything together.  They were always doing something fun together, even if it was just sitting home playing cards with other couples.  But the man grew up with parents that didn't do much together.  In fact he often says how his mother tried to get his father to do stuff, for whatever reason he would not.  So maybe that has something to do with it as well because he never saw that kind of interaction growing up.  Honestly I think that what one sees growing up influences ones life in many ways later on.

So as I sat watching Limitless, and the man sat downstairs watching college football, I wondered how we could insert a little more fun into our weekends.  Maybe even our weekdays as well.  This habit of just watching tv all day and night, eating our meals in front of the tv, holding conversations with the distraction of the tv, and the man having to have the tv on even during love tends to get a bit stale at times. (honestly my man likes tv more than sex )  Don't get me wrong I love the man but it just feels like we need to live a little more.  Probably sound like a broken record lately as every Saturday seems to bring on these same sentiments. lol  Oh well that's life.

Limitless was a good movie.  And snuggling with Angel is what life is all about....


Friday, October 14, 2011

Something Good

"Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day."

Like our lovely cottage porch, the impatiens and geraniums are still blooming and thanks to my father these brilliant yellow mums give it a fall feel as well.   Now all we need is some pumpkins! 

I love to sit on the porch enjoying the sights and sounds of nature.  Preferably with Angel, and the man when I can get him unglued from the computer or tv. 

We even have feisty chipmunks that like to scurry up the patio as well.  And bunnies that frolic in the grass. 

Such little things in life can bring such delight.  And even on the not so good days we must always remember to look for such things.

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

And so today after months of waiting, my appointment with the renown ear specialist took place.  Only to be faced with a huge unknown.  He doesn't feel the dizzy/vertigo spells are peripheral or in layman's terms originating from the ear.  He suspects they are more central in nature, meaning originating from within the central nervous system or brain.   He is sending me to a neurologist who supposedly specializes in such cases. 

So two ear specialists seem to agree it is centrally located.  The original neurologist didn't quite have a clue, and here's praying the second one will.   Because for now they all agree they have no answers, no solutions, nothing to just make it go away.  No real proven medications that will completely take the sensation away.  How is that possible with all the technology and medicines we have available?

And that is what I refer to as an unknown in life.  In my opinion, it's one of those scary moments of life because this unknown is having and causing such debilitating effects, that are affecting every area of my life now.  The not knowing is difficult to comprehend. 

I'm done trying to put up fronts, trying to act strong, or hide the weaknesses that this dizziness has brought with it.  The tears have flowed more than a few times recently, mainly out of pure frustration and exhaustion over feeling this chronic of dizziness, and just wanting to feel good again I suppose.   And maybe even a little over the fact I didn't realize how good I had it before this. 

Things happen in life, stress fills our world in many different ways, and we simply lose track of what is really important in life.  At times I know I let that happen, yet this dizziness has brought a lot into perspective in many ways.  And for that I suppose I am grateful as it has opened up my mind, given me new perspective, shown me what is truly important, and provided enlightening insights. 

Though today the unknown still consumes me with fear as I deeply just want to feel healthy, strong, and vibrant again.  I want to be free of this dizziness and vertigo for good.  And I have no idea what to do, or how to feel better.  But I do know this health, love and happiness are the true wealths.  

What is called genius is the abundance of life and health. Thoreau

Monday, October 10, 2011

Monday Musings

Monday......a Monday I wasn't exactly looking forward to.

Today I went for my ear testing at University of Pennsylvania Hospital.   The honest was worst than I imagined.   Let's just say my body didn't exactly react the way I thought it would. 

There were four parts to the test, I made it to part three before my body broke down.  In a darkened chamber which reminded me of a Igloo, I was harnessed to a chair and electrodes placed over my eyes to record my eye movements.  The technician then shut the door and I was in the small completely blackened, small chamber which was scary in itself.   The test began I had to follow a red light but then came the part where the chair started moving back and forth.....that is where my body lost it.  

The head spinning began, followed by the worst dry heaves.  I hear the technician running to open the chamber, she begins unhooking the harness,the eye thing, all the while I feel like I have just been  in a torture chamber.   After awhile, well once I could comprehend things, she informs me she feels I'm probably done testing for the day.  But in my attempt to want to feel normal again I said could we try part four?

So part four began with my head and body still reeling from the previous one.  I made it through until the part where they are suppose to pour cold/warm water in both of my ears.  The technician warns me that most people will spin for a little but with me because I had the reaction I did to the previous test, well it could be far worse.  So I contemplate this over and over, my gut reaction is to just stop.  I felt like such a chicken, the tears were flowing because all I want is a diagnosis as to what is causing all this debilitating dizziness.  But to risk feeling any worse than I already do just didn't seem worth it.

Today was testing tomorrow is meeting with this renowned ear specialist.  After all the specialists I've seen I'm hoping he might have some insight into what is causing all this, that it doesn't require any further torturous tests, and most of all I pray to just be healed so that I can go back to living a normal life again.

The man took a half day to take me to testing, for that I am very grateful.  It's so hard not being able to drive, being dependent on others to even run small errands is difficult, and being stuck in the house has taken a huge toll as well. (especially not being able to read)  I know it's hard for him to understand but I feel rather desperate to just get out of the house somedays, running to the supermarket feels exciting.   And when I need to pick up something I have to wait until I can get a ride which is frustrating, as I'm one of those go getter types who likes to get things done.  Maybe life is trying to teach me to slow down. haha

We don't stop to think about all the small things we do each day, the places we go, the people we encounter along the way, until we can't do those things.   It may sound odd but just being able to walk around the block, pick up food at the market, or whatever else is a luxury in itself.  

So that's my Monday in a nutshell.   And today I can't help but think of the saying "when life gives you lemons, make lemonade."

Friday, October 7, 2011


Be careful how you think; your life is shaped by your thoughts.

A beautiful day in Philadelphia.  Perfect weather.  Appreciating the little things.  Sense of gratitude.  Hoping for the best.  Wondering where time goes.  Dreaming.  Feeling passionate.

Today I choose to focus on the positive as our thoughts hold a power all their own and many times unbeknownst to us they affect us in more ways than we uderstand.

Thursday, October 6, 2011

The Innovators

Innovator: Is a person or organization who is one of the first to introduce into reality something better than before.  That often opens up a new area for others and achieves an innovation.  To the past and present innovators, and the list is long, thank you.  And in the words of Steve Jobs.....

"Here's to the crazy ones, the misfits, the rebels, the troublemakers, the round pegs in the square holes....the ones who see things differently-they're not fond of rules....You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them, but the only thing you can't do is ignore them because they change things....they push the human race forward, and while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius, because the ones who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do."

The only way to do great work is to love what you do. 

"Get your thinking clean to make it simple."

"Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick.  Don't lose faith."

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Life of Love

I mentioned the other day how the library delivered A Purpose Driven Life to my doorstep.  And how many years ago I had stumbled upon the book but just wasn't quite at a point I could appreciate the messages of the book.  

For some reason today I feel compelled to share some of the my favorite words from Chapter 16 about love.   I felt inspired when I heard these words, and thought maybe others would as well. 

Life is all about love.....

Love should be your top priority, primary objective, and greatest ambition.

"No matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I'm bankrupt without love."  

Relationships, not achievements or the acquisitions of things, are what matters most in life.

Love leaves a legacy.  How you treated people, not your wealth or accomplishments, is the most enduring impact you can leave on earth. 

Mother Teresa said "It's not what you do, but how much love you put into it that matters"

It's about giving our eyes, ears, time, attention, presence, and focus.  Nothing can take the place of that.   Whenever we give our time we are making a sacrifice, and sacrifice is the essence of love.

The importance of things can be measured by how much time we are willing to invest in them.  The more time you give to something, the more you reveal its importance and value to you.   The greatest gift you can give someone is your time.

The best use of life is love.  The best expression of love is time. The best time to love is now.

"These three things continue forever: faith, hope, and love.  And the greatest of these is love"

Monday, October 3, 2011

Monday Musings


What a weekend. 

In my quest to find healing for this dizziness I tried Reiki.  It is a type of energy healing that is suppose to promote healing.  It is administered by "laying on hands" and is based on the idea that an unseen "life force energy" flows through us and is what causes us to be alive. If one's "life force energy" is low, then we are more likely to get sick or feel stress, and if it is high, we are more capable of being happy and healthy.

You see the ear doctor I had seen had no answers or real solutions regarding this dizziness other then she believes a nerve has been damaged in my ear,  so she felt it was worth exploring eastern types of healing medicines as well.  So she recommended Reiki, Acupuncture, Massage, Cranial Sacral,etc..   My sister happened to come across this woman's name quite accidentally, so we looked at it as sign.  It was enlightening.

Did I mention I got to spend time with my niece afterwards?  That is healing in itself.  And of course at the tender age of 3 she wanted the details about the Reiki appointment.  She amazes me with her intelligence and wisdom at such a young age.

Also tuned into my Phillies as they made it to the playoffs, but the dizzy schnizzy reared it's head so I tried to close my eyes and just listen to the game last night and Saturday.  They won one and lost one.  These next games could be tough to watch. ha

And today I found out the ear specialist I was scheduled to see in December, well he took a look at my files the other ear specialist sent him and he agreed to see me next week!   This guy is impossible to get an appointment with as he runs supposedly one of the best dizziness/balance centers in the country. 

Now the down side is I have to go in Monday for 2 hrs of testing but cannot actually meet with him until the next day.  So it means two trips by train, and have to find someone who will take time off for work to go with me because they require someone to be there with me for testing. (I'm scared as I've been told the testing is not pleasant, the room will be spinning, and they will not let me leave until I feel okay.)  Can you say nervous?! 

I'm just hoping and praying to get some answers because life has been real hard lately and I just want to be able to do all the stuff I did before this dizziness.  Gosh even just being able to read a book or magazine again would be nice! 

I've reached the point where I'm pretty much open to trying anything eastern or western medicine has to offer.   Only downside is it all costs a lot of money, and when you can't work because your world is spinning well it can get tricky.  It would be great if insurances would cover those types of medicines, things like therapeutic massage and acupunture have shown to have positive benefits for many and often times work better than popping pills. 

Well that's my story for today, or well all the computer time I can handle for now.  Blessings!

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