Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Lost


Lately I've been feeling lost.... not sure what to do, what path or direction to take, what to think, and overall I guess there's this sense of just not knowing what to do when it comes to many areas of my life at the moment.   An uneasiness of sorts, the feeling of lacking a sense of direction or guidance. And of not having the answers I'd like or certain dreams fulfilled.

So what does one do when feeling this way?  I google "feeling lost", and as funny as it may sound I stumbled across some great articles and quotes.  (even though technically I should not even be on the computer but I figure I seem to be dizzy either way these days)
One of the quotes I stumbled upon was this....

Anything that you give your attention to will become your “truth”… The Law of attraction says that it must. Your life and everyone else's too is but a reflection of the predominance of your thoughts. There is no exception to this.”

And thought what am I giving my attention to right now? My thoughts feel so mumbled jumbled I honestly feel it's hard to give my attention or focus on anything specific.   But then I thought even in that jumbleness my attention is still going somewhere.  And that somewhere is probably to the overwhelming stress that I've been experiencing which is most likely is causing chaotic thoughts of negativity to be the focus?

 I keep trying to remind myself to remain positive as I battle this ongoing, baffling dizziness  which comes with a host of other rather scary  physical symptoms and leave me feeling as if my world is falling apart.  So I try not to focus on it, try to immerse myself in other things and thoughts but it has gotten hard lately.  I find more and more of my attention is going to the fear and anxiety I feel toward these dizzy spells.  And the stress I feel of not being able to find answers, nor even work, sends me in a downward spiral of negative thoughts too.  What's interesting is I find that once one gets in such a mindset everything else in life seems to take on a negative connotation or is over analyzed as well.

The problem is there isn't much left I can do without seemingly somehow bringing on these terrible spells.  Watching tv, reading a book, even trying to cook a meal seemingly brings it on.  And not being able to drive is the hardest.  It's hard to focus on anything else because of the overwhelming presence it has managed to wedge in my life at the moment.  But isn't it during moments exactly like these that we need to focus on the positive, seek out the answers, and find the strength?  But how....
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Maybe the answer lies in another quote I came upon.
 
“Every event in life can be causing only one of two things. Either it is good for you, or it's bringing up what you need to look at in order to create good for you.”

Could it be possibly that somehow things happen to us as a way of changing our life for the good?   It's hard to think that when we are going through something bad or feel horrible.  It's hard for me to believe that these dizzy spells are bringing up anything that might create eventual good.   Especially when they are seemingly slowly destroying my life at the moment.  But when you feel lost like I do at the moment, well I logically I have to try to explore all ways of thought. 

And I wonder why some people seemingly go through life with not an ailment at all, while others seemed weighed down by many.  (Many years ago I went through a puzzling health ailment, and let me tell you I didn't want to ever have to experience such a thing again....but here I am once again thrust into that world of the unknown where no one can explain the whys, hows, or cure the problem)  Could there be some lesson or message I'm somehow missing in all this?

There is a proverb which I also came across that states...

Fall seven times, stand up eight

And for now maybe that is all I need to remind myself.  As many times as my body knocks me down I need to somehow remind myself to keep standing up.  To not give it anymore power than it already has.  To focus on the positive, and hold on tight to anything at all that brings happiness.  Besides those moments in life when we feel the most lost could very well be the most enlightening.  In some ways those very moments could possibly teach us more about life, love, and what really matters than what we think those perfect moments do.

I feel myself beginning to say "who knows" a little too often these days, and I hate not having all the answers.  But then again does anyone?  And so I think when feeling sort of lost all paths should be explored, thoughts should be expressed, minds kept open, and to simply just do something each day that brings happiness even if it is just really small at first.   As...
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"A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step."
 And so with that in mind I came across two wonderfully written pieces on this subject for which I think offer some very inspiring advice and words of wisdom.



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