Saturday, December 31, 2011

Heading Into The New Year

There are many thoughts I have going into the New Year, many hard to even find words for.   I never expected 2011 to be as complicated nor as difficult as it turned out to be.  It tested me in so many ways, on so many levels.   It was a year that for a lack of better words wore me down.   Even the dreamer in me felt lost.
Instead of remaining positive, and having faith in the face of adversity I felt like I folded to the negative stuff that kept throwing itself at me.  It was hard to see any positive in what I experienced throughout 2011.   And yet sometimes it happens. But after a year of feeling sick, bored, stuck, lost, you name it I know I somehow have to find a way to rise above it. 
I don't want to simply put up with stuff anymore.  For long time that is how I felt.  Often times I didn't agree with certain things, or express the depth of hurt I felt at times.  I held a lot inside to the point I think it hurt my body both mentally and physically.  And now I realize that change is necessary.  And I know you cannot make others change but I believe the man might need to make some changes as well.  So I'm on a mission of sorts to try to create and bring back more good, to focus on the positive, and try to live life to the fullest.

So when I came across this article I thought how perfect.  In fact I'm going to print it out and post it in the office for inspiration.  It's full of wisdom, and who cannot use more wisdom!

30 Things to Stop Doing to Yourself
Article written by Marc at

As Maria Robinson once said, “Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.” Nothing could be closer to the truth. But before you can begin this process of transformation you have to stop doing the things that have been holding you back.
Here are some ideas to get you started:

1. Stop spending time with the wrong people. – Life is too short to spend time with people who suck the happiness out of you. If someone wants you in their life, they’ll make room for you. You shouldn’t have to fight for a spot. Never, ever insist yourself to someone who continuously overlooks your worth. And remember, it’s not the people that stand by your side when you’re at your best, but the ones who stand beside you when you’re at your worst that are your true friends.
2. Stop running from your problems. – Face them head on. No, it won’t be easy. There is no person in the world capable of flawlessly handling every punch thrown at them. We aren’t supposed to be able to instantly solve problems. That’s not how we’re made. In fact, we’re made to get upset, sad, hurt, stumble and fall. Because that’s the whole purpose of living – to face problems, learn, adapt, and solve them over the course of time. This is what ultimately molds us into the person we become.
3. Stop lying to yourself. – You can lie to anyone else in the world, but you can’t lie to yourself. Our lives improve only when we take chances, and the first and most difficult chance we can take is to be honest with ourselves. Read The Road Less Traveled .
4. Stop putting your own needs on the back burner. – The most painful thing is losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much, and forgetting that you are special too. Yes, help others; but help yourself too. If there was ever a moment to follow your passion and do something that matters to you, that moment is now.
5. Stop trying to be someone you’re not. – One of the greatest challenges in life is being yourself in a world that’s trying to make you likeeveryone else. Someone will always be prettier, someone will always be smarter, someone will always be younger, but they will never be you. Don’t change so people will like you. Be yourself and the right people will love the real you.
6. Stop trying to hold onto the past. – You can’t start the next chapter of your life if you keep re-reading your last one.
7. Stop being scared to make a mistake. – Doing something and getting it wrong is at least ten times more productive than doing nothing. Every success has a trail of failures behind it, and every failure is leading towards success. You end up regretting the things you did NOT do far more than the things you did.
8. Stop berating yourself for old mistakes. – We may love the wrong person and cry about the wrong things, but no matter how things go wrong, one thing is for sure, mistakes help us find the person and things that are right for us. We all make mistakes, have struggles, and even regret things in our past. But you are not your mistakes, you are not your struggles, and you are here NOW with the power to shape your day and your future. Every single thing that has ever happened in your life is preparing you for a moment that is yet to come.
9. Stop trying to buy happiness. – Many of the things we desire are expensive. But the truth is, the things that really satisfy us are totally free – love, laughter and working on our passions.
10. Stop exclusively looking to others for happiness. – If you’re not happy with who you are on the inside, you won’t be happy in a long-term relationship with anyone else either. You have to create stability in your own life first before you can share it with someone else. Read Stumbling on Happiness .
11. Stop being idle. – Don’t think too much or you’ll create a problem that wasn’t even there in the first place. Evaluate situations and take decisive action. You cannot change what you refuse to confront. Making progress involves risk. Period! You can’t make it to second base with your foot on first.
12. Stop thinking you’re not ready. – Nobody ever feels 100% ready when an opportunity arises. Because most great opportunities in life force us to grow beyond our comfort zones, which means we won’t feel totally comfortable at first.
13. Stop getting involved in relationships for the wrong reasons. – Relationships must be chosen wisely. It’s better to be alone than to be in bad company. There’s no need to rush. If something is meant to be, it will happen – in the right time, with the right person, and for the best reason. Fall in love when you’re ready, not when you’re lonely.
14. Stop rejecting new relationships just because old ones didn’t work. – In life you’ll realize that there is a purpose for everyone you meet. Some will test you, some will use you and some will teach you. But most importantly, some will bring out the best in you.
15. Stop trying to compete against everyone else. – Don’t worry about what others doing better than you. Concentrate on beating your own records every day. Success is a battle between YOU and YOURSELF only.
16. Stop being jealous of others. – Jealousy is the art of counting someone else’s blessings instead of your own. Ask yourself this: “What’s something I have that everyone wants?”
17. Stop complaining and feeling sorry for yourself. – Life’s curveballs are thrown for a reason – to shift your path in a direction that is meant for you. You may not see or understand everything the moment it happens, and it may be tough. But reflect back on those negative curveballs thrown at you in the past. You’ll often see that eventually they led you to a better place, person, state of mind, or situation. So smile! Let everyone know that today you are a lot stronger than you were yesterday, and you will be.
18. Stop holding grudges. – Don’t live your life with hate in your heart. You will end up hurting yourself more than the people you hate. Forgiveness is not saying, “What you did to me is okay.” It is saying, “I’m not going to let what you did to me ruin my happiness forever.” Forgiveness is the answer… let go, find peace, liberate yourself! And remember, forgiveness is not just for other people, it’s for you too. If you must, forgive yourself, move on and try to do better next time.
19. Stop letting others bring you down to their level. – Refuse to lower your standards to accommodate those who refuse to raise theirs.
20. Stop wasting time explaining yourself to others. – Your friends don’t need it and your enemies won’t believe it anyway. Just do what you know in your heart is right.
21. Stop doing the same things over and over without taking a break. – The time to take a deep breath is when you don’t have time for it. If you keep doing what you’re doing, you’ll keep getting what you’re getting. Sometimes you need to distance yourself to see things clearly.
22. Stop overlooking the beauty of small moments. – Enjoy the little things, because one day you may look back and discover they were the big things. The best portion of your life will be the small, nameless moments you spend smiling with someone who matters to you.
23. Stop trying to make things perfect. – The real world doesn’t reward perfectionists, it rewards people who get things done. Read Getting Things Done .
24. Stop following the path of least resistance. – Life is not easy, especially when you plan on achieving something worthwhile. Don’t take the easy way out. Do something extraordinary.
25. Stop acting like everything is fine if it isn’t. – It’s okay to fall apart for a little while. You don’t always have to pretend to be strong, and there is no need to constantly prove that everything is going well. You shouldn’t be concerned with what other people are thinking either – cry if you need to – it’s healthy to shed your tears. The sooner you do, the sooner you will be able to smile again.
26. Stop blaming others for your troubles. – The extent to which you can achieve your dreams depends on the extent to which you take responsibility for your life. When you blame others for what you’re going through, you deny responsibility – you give others power over that part of your life.
27. Stop trying to be everything to everyone. – Doing so is impossible, and trying will only burn you out. But making one person smile CAN change the world. Maybe not the whole world, but their world. So narrow your focus.
28. Stop worrying so much. – Worry will not strip tomorrow of its burdens, it will strip today of its joy. One way to check if something is worth mulling over is to ask yourself this question: “Will this matter in one year’s time? Three years? Five years?” If not, then it’s not worth worrying about.
29. Stop focusing on what you don’t want to happen. – Focus on what you do want to happen. Positive thinking is at the forefront of every great success story. If you awake every morning with the thought that something wonderful will happen in your life today, and you pay close attention, you’ll often find that you’re right.
30. Stop being ungrateful. – No matter how good or bad you have it, wake up each day thankful for your life. Someone somewhere else is desperately fighting for theirs. Instead of thinking about what you’re missing, try thinking about what you have that everyone else is missing.

CREDIT: Full article written by Marc at HERE

Friday, December 30, 2011

Medical Intuitive

This week I gave in and contacted a Medical Intuitive.  Honestly the doctors have no real answers for me regarding the vertigo, and other ailments, so I figured why not.  Not sure I'm a believer or not but it gave me something other to do than sit here overcome by fear and crying why me why me. (lets face it dealing with any kind of health issues is scary and difficult to deal with)

I know life is composed of energy, our bodies are energy and so I theorize there must be some kind of energy to us that certain sensitive individuals might be able to pick up on.  Or well that's my simple explanation. haha

A Medical Intuitive is an alternative medicine practitioner who uses their self described intuitive abilities to find the cause of a physical or emotional condition.   Caroline Myss and Edward Cayce are two well know intuitives.

Honestly I have become rather desperate for answers.  Trust me anyone would if their world consisted of spinning spells when one tried to do something as simply as reading a book.  And it's not just that the vertigo or vestibular dysfunction as the doctors refer to it by seems to be setting off my heart.  Yeah those fun skipped beats are back.  Ugh can you say frustrating.  I'm learning that can happen when the vestibular system malfunctions.  Greattttt. 

But yet still no root causes have been figured out nor cures either, how is that possible?

Anyway, the intuitive brought up some interesting things such as have blood work done for Lyme disease, ear wax issues, back issues centering where my head meets my neck, and even suggested some deep seated past life issue could be at the root cause. (okay that may seem a little far out but just trying to keep an open mind since the medical doctors don't have any concrete answers either) 

The most interesting idea she brought to the table was the mention of Cranial Sacral therapy.  As a physical therapist I had seen had performed it once on me and it had provided relief at the time.  My own intuition has been leaning to trying it on a regular basis, but because it can cost a lot was unsure.  It's often performed on people with head injuries, which interesting enough is what the physical therapist at the time felt I displayed more of than ear related issues.  

She also mentioned bringing religion more into my life, which is something I feel has been lacking for awhile now.  I used to be much more spiritual which is something I desire to get back to.  Not only that but I want to find a religion that feels right for me as well.  Although I was raised Catholic sometimes I feel more drawn to other religions. 

Was the session worth the money not sure, then again a lot of my specialists visits weren't worth the money.  I will investigate and explore the things she suggested to see if there is any validity to them. 

I do know this life is a mystery, and all we can do is keep an open mind because one never knows where the answer they might be looking for resides. 

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

The Holiday

Sometimes I think the craziness that comes with holidays often overlooks the real meaning of them.  People often times get so busy trying to find the perfect gifts, host parties, etc, that they forget what the true meaning behind the holiday.  Those moments simply spent sitting by the Christmas tree engaged in conversation with the ones we love is the most precious to me.  Or something as simple as making cookies together.

This year I made the usual Italian feast, even though we are not Italian. Lasagna, Bake Ziti with Caesar salad and homemade garlic bread.  Followed by Gingerbread and Ice Cream cake for dessert.

The day was pretty much spent playing with my niece who is a ball of energy.  We got some quality family time which was really nice.  Though the man was still glued to the football game and having to work on his website in the other room. (he can't even take a holiday off from it)  Only downside of the holiday was the dizziness lingered which wasn't exactly pleasant and made me have to limit my movements somewhat.  Who wants to do that especially when I have a niece who loves to play. : )

The man has to drive to New York on Christmas Day to see his mother, she doesn't allow Angel so I stay here with her.  Which allows me more time with my niece which is always great especially on Christmas.  Life through a kids eyes is so enlightening.  Simply letting go of all the adult distractions and letting ourselves play is fun.

I had all kinds of ideas of what the man might get me for Christmas.   Pretty much I'm the type of person that appreciates small little gifts, especially meaningful ones.  Seriously I can be happy with a four dollar ring. The man usually waits until literally the last minute to buy gifts, which means I never know what to expect.  I was definitely surprised when I got a netbook from him.  And tickets to the flower show.

I'd love to post all the photos I took but with the dizziness it's just too hard right now to edit them all.   I need to find an easier, quick way to edit all the photos I take.

And so with New Year's approaching I'm beginning to think I need some major resolutions.   In fact I need to create a list because there is a lot to tackle.  Tackle is a good word I think because there is just a lot of stuff that needs to be accomplished, resolved, worked on, healed, you name it.  This year there were many unexpected things, especially health wise that altered things in ways I had not planned.

I'm learning a lot from all that has happened this year, in the process there have been things I desire to change as well as things that need to change.  Including maybe even my blog.  Tossing around a lot of ideas....

For now Happy Holidays from my world to yours!

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Lessons Learned

When I came across these beautifully written lessons by Oprah I just knew they needed to be shared.  The world can always use a little inspiration!

Lessons Learned

1. What you put out comes back all the time, no matter what. (This is my creed.)

2. You define your own life. Don't let other people write your script.

3. Whatever someone did to you in the past has no power over the present. Only you give it power.

4. When people show you who they are, believe them the first time. (A lesson from Maya Angelou.)

5. Worrying is wasted time. Use the same energy for doing something about whatever worries you.

6. What you believe has more power than what you dream or wish or hope for. You become what you believe.

7. If the only prayer you ever say is thank you, that will be enough. (From the German theologian and humanist Meister Eckhart.)

8. The happiness you feel is in direct proportion to the love you give.

9. Failure is a signpost to turn you in another direction.

10. If you make a choice that goes against what everyone else thinks, the world will not fall apart.

11. Trust your instincts. Intuition doesn't lie.

12. Love yourself and then learn to extend that love to others in every encounter.

13. Let passion drive your profession.

14. Find a way to get paid for doing what you love. Then every paycheck will be a bonus.

15. Love doesn't hurt. It feels really good.

16. Every day brings a chance to start over.

17. Being a mother is the hardest job on earth. Women everywhere must declare it so.

18. Doubt means don't. Don't move. Don't answer. Don't rush forward.

19. When you don't know what to do, get still. The answer will come.

20. "Trouble don't last always." (A line from a Negro spiritual, which calls to mind another favorite: This, too, shall pass.)

Woof Wednesday

Welcome to Woof Wednesday.  Today I'd like to start off by saying the unconditional love of a dog is equal to none other in life.  But people must be ready for the responsibility that comes with bringing a dog into their lives.

All too often lately are stories filled with people who got a dog but then suddenly realized their lifestyle, finances, or whatever else were just not suitable for having a dog, and they give it up.  I don't know what they seem to think, but animals have feelings too and they develop strong attachments.  Many when given up by the only families they have known go threw difficult times just like humans.

Please think anyone who is thinking about a dog this holiday or any other time of the year, give it some deep thought.   Thank you.

So without further adieu let's meet our Woof Wednesday dog.  Please meet Roy a white Schnauzer who was rescued from a puppy mill. The little guy is shy and nervous but learning to trust.  He needs a patient, adult home willing to help him learn to enjoy life in a real home.

Let's find this sweetheart a good, loving home!

Roy: Schnauzer, Dog; Oak Ridge, NJ

Roy, 6 year old, White Schnauzer 

Second Chance Pet Adoption League, Oak Ridge, NJ (Roy PFId#21542894)
  • 973-208-1054

{Please keep in mind a dog is a lifetime commitment. They need attention, love and time just like we do. In addition, adding a pet to the family does cost money in the way of food, health care,training,etc. So before adopting make sure you are willing to make that kind of commitment and have the resources to do so.}

*If you want to be apart of "Woof Wednesdays" email Lauren at [] or leave a comment! We would Love to bring you on board!

Monday, December 19, 2011

Monday Musings


The weekend started out rough.   On Saturday after being awake only twenty minutes I was overcome by a bout of vertigo.   That brought a sense of panic, it might have been low blood sugar as well because I woke up feeling ravenous.  If I get too hungry it can bring on nausea and a whole host of unpleasant sensations.  Overall it felt like everything from my head to my stomach was off.

The dizziness is just baffling. Then again so is the heart.  I'm keeping these detailed notes of activities, symptoms, etc but just cannot see a common trigger. Though the computer/tv do seem to make it worse. It's scary, an often times leaves me in tears of complete frustration.  I just don't understand with all the technology how they cannot figure out the root cause of it.

Anyway, the original plan was to take Angel to sit on Santa's lap.  This little pet boutique shop in a quaint little town filled with tree lined streets sparkling with white lights, and small shops on cobble stone streets.  I was hoping we might actually get to walk around as well but was simply thankful  to even make the short trip with the man to get her photo with Santa.

Just being able to do anything means so much.  In that moment I felt overwhelmed with gratitude, even though I still wasn't feeling no where near a hundred percent.  Snowflakes even began to fall which added a nice festive touch.  For whatever reason I have had a hard time getting in the holiday spirit this season so that moment of snow felt special.

Sunday we just stayed in, the man developed a nasty head cold and my head still was grappling with the dizziness.  We watched Tebow and the boys unfortunately they didn't beat the Patriots but that's okay because they can't win every game.  The man's head cold has me a little worried, as he doesn't  exactly cover his mouth when he sneezes or coughs, not to mention his tissues that get  left laying around.  And I don't think my immune system is exactly up to par these days.

(side note: the man looks right out of GQ when he goes to work but on weekends he has to wear these sports jackets and hats.  I always tell him I'm jealous of the people he works with because they get to see his dapper side, where as I get the throw anything on style)  haha  

(me completely bundled up as it was a chilly day in Philadelphia and trying to keep my balance was challenging)

Anyway, this Monday has me feeling some what exhausted, a little anxious and discouraged as well.  There is just so much I want to do,  answers I desperately seek and resolutions I deeply desire.  Yet I also feel like I'm lacking a sense of guidance, understanding and wisdom right now.

With the holidays approaching I read other people's wish lists but honestly haven not even created one yet.   The only thing I truly want for Christmas is to be healed from head to toe, and everything in between.  And I know that is asking for somewhat of a miracle but isn't that in some sense what Christmas is about.

At least we made it to Santa, heard a few carolers, saw some snow, got to experience the Christmas spirit if even for a little.  I'm grateful for that special moment.

Friday, December 16, 2011

Beach Dreams

The other night I had a dream filled of beautiful ocean waves and magnificent shells.  For awhile there it seemed like every other day I had such a dream.  And when I didn't for awhile I missed them.

One thing that always stands out is the happiness I feel in them.  I've always had this thing about the ocean.  In fact, I could sit staring at the ocean all day without feeling bored.  In a sense it seems to sooth my soul in a way I don't even quite understand. 

I don't even need warm weather, as even in the winter I still like to stroll the beach.  There are moments we have been in Atlantic City in the winter where I can barely contain myself from running to the beach.  While everyone is busy gambling there I am wrapped in layer upon layer trying to stay warm as I hunt for shells or simply sit on the beach breathing in the salt air, listening to the sound of the waves and pondering the mysteries of the sea. 

In fact, I even prefer it more in the off season when it's not overcrowded and noisy with man made noises that muffle the beautiful sounds of  the ocean.  

Some days I wonder how this love of the sea even began, and why my soul feels so deeply drawn to the beach and ocean.  I have lived in beach towns, you think that would have satisfied my soul just having that opportunity.  But yet it still seems to long to be back in a small beach town.  If only I could move my whole family to a beach town because though it's a dream of mine it's really quite nothing without family there to share it.  

The love I have for family is just as strong a draw as the beach. And of course the man who cannot just up and walk away from the great job he finally found as well.  Not to mention small beach towns aren't exactly over flowing with affordable housing or good paying jobs  

And that's where dreams can be tough because they may not always entwine with one another. So sometimes I wake from these ocean dreams to  wonder what can one do if their soul longs to be near the sea but simply cannot.  

Should we take more day trips to the beach. Or find a way to maybe even rent a place in the summers, of course that financially seems impossible.  Would the man even be game for more time at the beach as I don't think he longs for it as much.  Could I get the whole family, parents and sister's family included to somehow venture more to the beach together.  To be honest it is best when shared with others. And my dreams always seem to include everyone as well. 

Just thoughts and a little daydreaming.  

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Woof Wednesday

Welcome to Woof Wednesday.   Please meet Jasper West Highland/Maltese mix from New York.  

Jasper loves other dogs and cats, and very playful and affectionate with humans. Great with children also . He is a sweet bundle of joy.  A true happy soul and has lost of love to give. 

Let's find this sweet guy a good, loving home!

Jasper, West Highland/Maltese Mix
18 months, 16 lbs

Posh Pets Rescue, New York, NY 
Contact: Linda

{Please keep in mind a dog is a lifetime commitment. They need attention, love and time just like we do. In addition, adding a pet to the family does cost money in the way of food, health care,training,etc. So before adopting make sure you are willing to make that kind of commitment and have the resources to do so.}

*If you want to be apart of "Woof Wednesdays" email Lauren at [] or leave a comment! We would Love to bring you on board!
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