Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Happy Thoughts

So many thoughts flowing through my mind lately.  Sometimes I feel like I can't sleep because of them.

And I came upon this quote :

"Very little is needed to make a happy life. It is within yourself, in your way of thinking."

Although, how do we remain happy in our thinking some days when getting barraged with not so happy stuff or negativity?  I've really been trying hard lately to try to remember that "things happen for reasons".  Just sometimes wish I knew what they were.

Take for example my phone fiasco the other day. Since I'm not up for a new phone for another year, it means I have to pay full price.  So I have to think long and hard about what I can really afford at the moment.  And these data packages that seems to go along with every phone these days is absurd.  How do I remain happy while knowing my finances are draining quicker than I can control?

Oh and I have to share a recent interview experience.  Applied to a position at National Philanthropic Trust, which I felt was a perfect fit for my background/experience and skill set.  In fact, it was the first position I was actually excited about.  Interviewed with two different individuals both went great. Two hours later they called to tell me they wanted to move along the process and to please send them 3 professional references.

I actually started visualizing myself working there, that is how positive I felt about it.   

And then nothing.  I followed up with them in a professional manner. Still nothing.  Then I hear from one my references who said  the woman had called, left him a voicemail, and upon returning her call her got her voicemail.  He said he left a message for her but she never called him back. Turns out she contacted all references leaving voicemails but never returned any of their calls when they actually tried to reach her.

Hence exactly a month later I try one more follow up, this time with a higher up at the company.  Don't you know within two days the woman sent me a letter saying the position had been filled.  Really?  I felt for sure the position was being offered to me.  I was completely stunned, still am.  

So....I'm trying  to think happy thoughts.  Even though I am completely disappointed.  But herein lies the key I guess, to think happy despite everything else that may try to bring us down in life.  It's not easy that is for sure.  But I am going to pray that there is some better position out there and that is why this happened the way it did. 

I think maybe I need to set aside time each day to meditate. To spend time each day focusing on the positive because right now I feel like I am being weighed down with a little too much negativity.  And I feel it is really taking a toll on my body, heart and soul.

In addition, I keep saying I'm going to get back into the habit of praying but then don't.  So I need to set aside the same time everyday to focus on what is really important in life.  Make a little schedule and stick to it.  I'm one of those types that like to have a schedule, I hate not knowing what or when I'm doing something.  I find I'm much more productive when I set aside a specific time and day.

And don't you know while I'm sitting here at my desk typing this morning, the most amazing colored Blue Jay sat right outside the window.  Of course I didn't have my camera handy but this is what it looked like.  It made me feel happy.  ; )



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