Thursday, May 27, 2010

Flowers and Gratitude.

This morning I'm giving thanks to my man who came home with beautiful, mini roses for me yesterday.   I was happily surprised and very grateful!  (those little things mean so much to me)  

I've been having such a stressful time of it lately that I think he intuitively knew I needed a little pick me up, or a little reminder that he was thinking of me.   It's amazing how the little things in life, like receiving flowers can bring us so much joy and happiness.

What can I say....I'm a hopeless romantic.  Flowers, cards, candy, notes, texts that say or show love....yup I adore them.  Honestly, any little gift that is given from the heart means the world to me.  I'm even happy with little phone calls each day, it's just about doing those little extras.  To me those are as water is to a flower, they help to nurture and sustain loving relationships. 

Lets face it none of us are mind readers, and so it's good to let the ones we love know how we feel or that we are thinking of them.  So today call, write, or send the person you love a little something special! 

Thought I would share this with you too, as a friend had sent it to me and it is filled with little ways to show express love.  I thought it was cute.

50 Ways to Love Your Partner
1. Start each day with a kiss. 2. Say “I love you”. 3. Date once a week. 4. Accept differences. 5. Be polite. 6. Be gentle. 7. Give gifts. 8. Smile often. 9. Touch. 10. Talk about dreams. 11. Choose a song that can be “your song.” 12. Give back rubs. 13. Laugh together. 14. Send a card for no reason. 15. Do what they ask before they ask. 16. Listen. 17. Encourage. 18. Do it their way. 19. Know their needs. 20. Fix their favorite breakfast. 21. Compliment them twice a day. 22. Call them. 23. Slow down. 24. Hold hands. 25. Cuddle. 26. Ask their opinion. 27. Show respect. 28. Welcome them home. 29. Look your best for them. 30. Wink at them. 31. Celebrate birthdays in a big way. 32. Apologize. 33. Forgive. 34. Set up a romantic getaway. 35. Ask, “What can I do to make you happier?” 36. Be positive. 37. Be kind. 38. Be vulnerable. 39. Respond quickly to their requests. 40. Talk about your love. 41. Reminisce about your favorite times together. 42. Treat their friends and relatives with respect. 43. Send flowers every Valentine’s Day and Anniversary. 44. ADMIT WHEN YOU ARE WRONG. 45. Be sensitive to their sexual desires. 46. Pray for them daily. 47. Watch sunsets together. 48. SAY “I LOVE YOU” FREQUENTLY. 49. End each day with a hug. 50. Spend time together with no distractions.

And thanks baby! (if you are by chance reading this)

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Really It's That Hard?

Okay for any of you who have followed a few of my posts regarding my current house I live in, you know it's rather crazy at times.  I just can't believe people are really like this.  First let me give a quick summary of the people that live here and have lived here. 

And why today has left me asking....is it really that hard to lock a front door?

We live on the first floor of this old victorian home.  We have lived here for a few years yet the characters that have come and gone from the two other floors have been right out of a Seinfeld episode. 

First there was bob, a 40 something alcoholic....who when the local corner bar closed would stumble home drunk every night.  And made such a ruckus trying to get into his apartment.  He admitted to also having ocd....and spent nearly every day in the basement washing something.  Hey at least he was clean, and nice when sober. Drunk well that was a different story....let's just say scary.  He pretty much only paid one months rent, and the last straw for the landlords was when he hit his head on his own front door,dripping with blood he passed out in the hallway. 

Next up was Colin, a 21 yr old from upstate NY,fresh out of college and about to attend grad school.  Who thought when he rented the place that Philly was right down the block.  Well it technically is more of a 25 min drive, then walk. haha  He was okay but had odd habits like always popping up at our windows.  Down right scared us some nights.  Basically we would find him looking in, and then trying to start up a convo....no matter what we happen to be doing. He basically got bored living in such a tiny 3rd floor attic apt, found himself a girlfriend and when lease was up moved to a much more happening city locale.

Geoff and Nancy, 50 something guy and his girlfriend on the second floor realized they could not afford their apt, and took over the 3rd floor tiny apt.   Let me just say that this guy has never worked.  He is one of those blow bag types who claims to be an inventor but so far hasn't invented anything, basically mooches off his girlfriend and the only thing he seems to leave the apt to do is pick up beer.  Oh and did I mention he believes in a lot of conspiracy theories....first day we moved in he informed me "no one knows I live here".  Greatttttt. 

Then there is Catherine, the woman in her 50's who moved in the 2nd floor above us.  Turns out she is also an alcoholic, who hides all her alcohol in her trunk.  She comes out late at night to retrieve it, but our back window backs right up to the driveway so we can pretty much hear and see everything she does. haha  She doesn't work either, instead she lives off the taxpayers money.  She listens to her tv soooo loud we can hear every word of it, and does it into the wee hours of the night because she basically sleeps all day. And smokes so much it radiates out the cracks.  She can't park has basically almost hit both our cars, she knocks on our door constantly just to tell us useless things which usually don't make any sense because you guessed it she is drunk. 

So now let's get to lastest issues amongst house residents....new lady doesn't want the front door locked?  Call me crazy but isn't it normal to lock the front door?  Isn't that the normal and safe thing to do?  Granted we all have secure lock on our apartments doors but the main door should always be locked too.  We don't need anyone lurking in our hallway.  No she refuses to lock it and so the landlord who doesn't like to be bothered thinks it's okay.  In fact, the landlord said not to lock it from now on.  Huh??????

Isn't there a law of some sort that requires apartments to lock their main front door at all times? 

Can you understand why I want so bad to own my own house.  At this point, we just want a new place whether we own it or not we don't care.

 I don't like to judge anyone but when people stop being logical, when they can't adhere to simple rules like locking a door....well then I have an issue.  But it doesn't matter because new lady won't listen to reason nor will she give a reason as to why she won't lock it.  Please someone explain to me what is so hard about locking a door?  I mean she locks her own apartment door, so why can't she lock the main door? 

I've been searching high and low for a small house, in a nice neighborhood, that fits with our budget and honestly not having much luck.  I guess all major cities have high prices but come on in this economy, with so many people out of work....how can anyone afford some of these?

Ahhhhh.....so that's my housing dilemma.  And I just may have to make a tv show of it one day.  Tomorrow I promise no rants just raves!

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Romance

So my man had to be up very early this morning, and oddly as it sounds the topic of conversation this morning turned to romance.  Specifically I made the mistake of saying "why don't you try being as romantic as your sister".  Silly comment I know but I was trying to make a point that one of them in the family seemed to get all the romantic genes and the other not so much. haha

So he responded with the typical "most men are not romantic" "only a very small percentage of men are".  Something I really don't buy and think is a total cop out by most men, because romance is quite easy it just requires some deeper thinking.   I know quite a few men who have no problems expressing their romantic sides in cards, letters, little gifts, planning romantic getaways, dinners, dates,or other such moments.  Definitely have guy friends that defy the stereo type.

Basically I would say he has an overall pessimistic attitude toward romance or what I like to call the macho dude syndrome. (which we see plenty on tv commercials....for example the guy staring at beer cans,obviously to the candles, flowers and lingerie clad wife waiting for love)  And though we like to paint men like that, I'd like to think that there are more romantics than not out there? Maybe?  ; )

So I'm curious has romance become a lost art?  Are most men or women not romantic?  Yeah somedays it does feel like overall our society has gotten away from the good ole fashion ways of romance such as courting   And we seem to hear about the negative stories more than the positive.  We don't hear about the couples who are still romancing each other after 50 years together, we hear about the weaklings who have no hearts and can't devote their penis to one woman.

Having said that though, I do hear stories from couples who exchange cards, love notes, plan date nights, still enjoy frequent love, and overall make a point to work at maintaining romance.  Which make me feel romance is still quite alive and thriving. But then again that's because those couples put effort and work into creating and maintaining it.  Romance is just like anything else it takes work, practice,love and lots of creativity.

Okay now that I've gone off on a tangent, here upon lies the question....are most people romantic or is it really just a small percentage of people? 
Let's ponder this some more if you don't mind.  Is your partner (man or woman) romantic?  What does romance mean to you?  How do you or your partner express your romantic feelings or love for one another?  Do you feel woman are overall more romantic than men?

Email, post a comment, whatever but I (we) would love to hear your thoughts!  ; )


Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Ebb and Flow

 Seems a week has gone by since my last post.  Have to admit blogging has taken a back seat as I haven't felt as motivated because currently feel this heavy weight of stress.  Stress has a way of making thoughts feel scattered.  Scattered is the worst because instead of one thought its millions.  It's as if you just want to write about every thing crossing  your mind. Anyway....

It what the ebbs and flows of life are all about.  Life can't always be without stress, just as it can't always be sunny.  And I guess that's how we learn what we need to in life?  Because lets face it, if everyday was perfect, if life was perfect then what would we really learn right? How would we grow intellectually, spiritually, emotionally, etc.. Doesn't it seem like we learn more from the bad then the good sometimes.  The stress, the challenges, those rainy days don't they make us appreciate the small things, the good things, and those sunny days more?

Which is what I try to remind myself because usually I'm a pretty optimistic girly.  But feel like I'm being pulled in a million different directions right now, so much to think about.  The job search feels endless, each day sending out resumes, yet the dream job or any job for that matter has yet to show up. The house search pretty much feels the same way.  And if you can't tell from my other posts I think I dream about having my own house just about every second of every day. And well that's just the tip of the iceberg, there's so much more but I won't bore you with all the details.

And as the saying goes "when life hands you lemons, make lemonade".  Great saying because it's the truth.  Instead of dwelling on the stress or what may not be going right, instead focus on how you can turn it around and make it right.  And that is precisely what I am trying to do.  I'm definitely going to dwell some days more than others.  Especially when I don't have the money to do the little things I so enjoy, like buy bunches and bunches of flowers this time of year.  And golf....oh I miss being able to golf this time of year because it's so relaxing but an expensive activity for sure.

On the bright side, I'm taking courses to further enhance my education, I'm exercising to help reduce cortisol that overwhelms the body when it feels stressed, I'm reading inspirational books, praying, meditating, and most importantly trying to go back to my authentic roots of who I am and want to be.  Each one of us has the power to make ourselves better each day, and to make the world a better place.  

JK Rowlings recently said "The knowledge that you have emerged wiser and stronger from setbacks means that you are, ever after, secure in your ability to survive. You will never truly know yourself, or the strength of your relationships, until both have been tested by adversity. Such knowledge is a true gift, for all that it is painfully won, and it has been worth more than any qualification I ever earned." 

So true.

And so that is what I'm thinking today.


Thursday, May 13, 2010

Positive Thoughts

Being laid off has really given me time to think.  And I realized where I previously worked had been rather toxic to my soul.  Don't get me wrong I had a few nice coworkers but overall it just wasn't a positive place to work.  And though I miss the money a lot, I don't miss feeling the negativity, pessimism or judgementalness that I always felt upon entering the office each morning.

Like the time the Vice President sent a message to the cfo calling the accountant a retard, he never knew the accountant saw it....but it left the accountant girl in tears and very hurt.  Or the time one of our Presidents in NY asked me to inquire about our vp's traveling schedule immediately, and when I went to ask him I was told he was tired of being treated like a child by the NY office and to get the f**k out of his office before he really went crazy.  Or the numerous times I was on the phone with clients as he walked by exclaiming loudly how much a bitch or asshole certain well to do clients were.  Like the clients that I had on the phone couldn't hear him? 

Nothing like some of the positive, nice environments I had been blessed to work at in the past.

Overall there is a lot of gossip, pessimism, anger, negativity in all parts of our world somedays.  And all those things do have an affect on us whether it be our bodies, our souls, our spirits, etc..

It got me thinking how many of us are subjected to toxic environments whether it be your workplace, commute, relationships, home, etc..  Are there places that make you feel negative, stressed or out of sorts, that instead of bringing happiness or peace to your life make you feel quite the opposite?  The same goes for people? 

The easy solution would be to change, just leave the toxicity behind.  Change jobs, houses, relationships, and so forth.   But reality is many of us do not have that luxury.  Many people are stuck in jobs they hate that bring them down each day, or stuck in places housing situations that they can't afford to change, etc.. 

So then my question becomes is it possible to bring some kind of positive change into toxic places or relationships that would allow them to maybe become a little less toxic?  Are we capable of changing environments or people, are we capable of changing pessimistic situations to optimistic?

Is it true what Norman Vincent Peale author of Positive Thinking said "Change your thoughts and you change your world. "  Can simply changing our thoughts about something change our world?  And is it possible to change others attitudes from bad to good?  If we can't free ourselves from a toxic environment or person, can changing how we think about it really make a difference?

He also was quoted as saying  "If you have zest and enthusiasm you attract zest and enthusiasm. Life does give back in kind."  I believe there is some truth in that because how often do others moods rub off on us?  If we encounter a moody, cynical individual its as if suddenly our mood takes on theirs.  Same goes for a happy, optimistic individual their good mood can be contagious.

Okay but then what is the key to truly having an affect on others.  Is it as simple as just changing the way we react to them or trying to rub our positiveness off on them?  I've been around some moody, grouchy, mean spirited people and personally I find it quite hard to get them in good spirits.  It can be very draining.  Maybe the key is to just keep trying and I'd like to think Mr Peale is right that the good you give will be returned if you remain positive. 

Well it's something to think about anyway.  Oh and check out this great postcard I found!

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

The Soul Checkup

Lately I have been feeling spiritually depleted.  Seems like I have gotten away from the spiritual aspects of life, often times the stress of life can do that.  But I find myself more and more wanting to get back to a deeper sense of spirituality, life and purpose. 

Concidentally, or not, I came across this article in an email link.  Upon reading it and finding it interesting I figured I would pass it along....



We all want a sense of meaning and purpose in our lives. If you're feeling spiritually rusty, Krista Tippett (author of the book Speaking of Faith and host of the public radio series of the same name) offers six ways to reconnect with your own truth.

Whether devout or agnostic, we are all theologians. A spiritual impulse runs through every aspect of human experience; it's the part of us that searches for meaning. What matters in a life? What matters in a death? How do we show love? How can we be of service to one another and to the world? Religious traditions arose to address these questions, and many of us grew up thinking of the answers as the domain of experts, clergy, saints. We never learned how to use our personal experiences to discern our own meaning and truth.

Below are some exercises to lead you to your sense of the sacred through the stories of your life. Quaker author Parker J. Palmer likens the soul to a wild animal that needs “quiet, inviting, and trustworthy” spaces to show itself and to speak its truth. Remember as you consider these matters, by yourself and with others, how very intimate this part of life is. Go gently and respectfully, and expect to be moved, refreshed, and surprised.

Exercise 1
In our time, many essential human issues and institutions are up for grabs—definitions of the beginning and end of life, of marriage and family, of love and community. From my conversations with people across the world's traditions, I am convinced that religious wisdom is as much about contemplating questions as it is about closing in on answers. Start to think of your spiritual dilemmas, and not just their answers, as blessed and sacred. Chew on them, and share them with others.

Exercise 2
Pose a large spiritual question that you'd like to explore or be more knowledgeable about: Who is this God I believe in? How do I make sense of evil in the world and live with that? What is prayer? Respond by reflecting, meditating, or writing in your journal, and answer it through the story of your life. If you're considering prayer, for example, call up the prayers of your childhood, those you said and what they meant to you, the periods when you stopped praying and why, the different forms your prayer has taken in joyous, fearful, or heartbreaking moments. You will gain a clarity about your beliefs that you did not have before, and you may face further ways in which you need to explore those beliefs.

Exercise 3
The ancient Celts spoke of “thin places” and “thin times”—when the veil between heaven and earth is worn thin, where the temporal and the transcendent seem to touch. We've all experienced these instances when we're surrounded by natural beauty, in moments of friendship or love, in a place of quiet, at a hospital bedside. Recall those times when you experienced a fleeting moment of mystery. Revisit the memories and feel how they've imprinted you.

Exercise 4
Take an issue that religious passions have inflamed, and humanize it. For example, have a discussion with someone in your family or community on the opposite side of a hot-button issue, like the gay marriage debate. But don't start with the predictable arguments or positions. Instead, ask yourselves and each other, When did I start to care about this? Why do I care now? What are the hopes and fears I bring to this issue? This won't make the debate less complicated or hasten its resolution, but it can transform the way we treat each other along the way. It can engender compassion, a core virtue in every spiritual tradition. It can help us identify the questions we share in common as well as the answers that divide us. And it can make a new kind of conversation possible.

Exercise 5
Revisit words that are important in your religious practice for the richness your own experiences might give them. Toss them around in your mind, outside the context in which you learned them, and look at them in the light of real life. For example, many of us grew up thinking of God as “Father.” This is a metaphor, an approximation. But that Father-God of my childhood was all too literal, all-powerful, and remote. I've found the actual experience of being a parent to be much more about vulnerability and a loving, excruciating lack of control. Reflecting on this has given me fresh ways to think about the nature of God and the power and frailty of the freedom that marks human experience.

Exercise 6
Build silence into your life, and into your family's life. Silence is an essential element, in virtually every religious tradition, of spiritual health, knowledge, and growth. But it's a rare commodity in our culture. We have to reacquaint ourselves with silence and tend and treasure it in activities that are already part of our routine—prayer or meditation, walking or gardening, time with our children when the television is off and hearts and minds are still and open.

By Krista Tippett

O, The Oprah Magazine

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Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Blueberry Muffins

I've never been one for eating alot of packaged food, especially the kind that lists more then twenty ingredients, or words that have to be looked up to figure out what they are.  That being said I try to cook as much as possible from scratch.  I love trying new recipes.

Over the years I developed a food allergy to eggs, wheat, and certain fruits which has really been challenging when it comes to cooking, especially baking.  So today to my delight I found a delicious, eggless recipe for blueberry muffins.  To find any kind of cake or cookie recipe that doesn't have egg, tastes good, and remains moist without being dense is always a great surprise.

So to those who have been searching for an eggless muffin recipe below is the recipe, including crumb topping I whipped up too.

1 1/2 cups plus 2 T. flour
1/2 cup plus 2 T. sugar
1 1/2 tsp. baking powder
1/4 tsp. salt
1/8 tsp. baking soda
1/4 cup milk-free margarine, melted
1 1/2 T. water, 1 1/2 T. oil, and 1 tsp. baking powder, mixed together
1 cup water
3/4 cup blueberries

Crumb Topping:
1/2 Flour
1/2 Sugar
1 1/2 Tsp Cinnamon
1/4 Butter Softened

Preheat oven to 350°. Line muffin tins with paper liners. Set aside. In large bowl, sift together 1 1/2 cups plus 1 T. flour; sugar, baking powder, salt, and baking soda. Set aside.

In separate large bowl, mix together margarine and water, oil, and baking powder mixture. Whisk together until mixed well. Add water. Mix well. Combine margarine mixture and flour mixture; stir well. Coat blueberries in remaining flour. Fold blueberries into batter.

Spoon batter into prepared muffin tins. Mix crumb ingredients together with fork and sprinkle on top of muffins. Bake 25 minutes, or until toothpick inserted in center comes out clean. Remove from oven; cool on wire rack 5 minutes. Move muffins to wire rack to cool thoroughly.

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Mother's Day

My mother has been the greatest inspiration in my life.  Through good and bad times she has been the one person who has always been there.  When sometimes the rest of the world has disappeared my mothers love remained strong.  No words could possibly describe how much I love my mother, how much I respect her, love her, and how grateful I am to have her as my mother. 

When I think of what a mother should be, I always think of my mother.  She is kind, unselfish, compassionate, honest, generous, loving, strong, giving, sensitive,courageous, smart, nuturing, has strong morals/values, and provides unconditional love to her family.

My father worked long hours so it was her who had the day to day responsibilities of  raising two kids.  And when she eventually went back to work it was her who still had that responsibility.  She did it flawlessly, and made it look easy.  She has been the one true blessing in my life and our family, and if you know me....that is something I rarely say about anyone or anything.

My sister is now a mother.  And in watching her I feel she embodies the same beautiful qualities of our mother. There is no doubt she is going to be just as an amazing mother as other mother is. 

I'm only the mother of a little doggie, but motherhood to me is the hardest job.  Mothers are responsible for raising a another soul, who for at least 18 years is completely dependent upon you for just about everything.  And it's up to a mother to try and give her children the best life possible which isn't easy, and these days seems even more challenging.

How do you protect children from all the dangers of the world?  How do you provide them with enough love to make them into good people?  How do you teach them right from wrong?  How does a mother make herself into the kind of person that her kids can depend on, trust, and look up to?  

Mothers do so much in life, and I don't know how they do it.  Mothers have a huge amount of responsibility, being a mother is a full time job and just like Valentine's Day, Mother's Day should be celebrated more often, where mothers are shown the appreciation and love they deserve everyday.

So today, I not only wish all Mother's a Happy Mother's Day.  But for Mother's of all ages....inspire to be not just a mother but an amazing mother because the world needs more mother's like mine. 




And to my mother Happy Valentine's Day.   This song is for you mom!

"Because You Loved Me"

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Where To Live

Today I went to look at houses and other apartments to rent.  It was really nice driving through the area I chose today because the roads were lined with beautiful tress, the streets were quiet and not crowded, and it just felt more at home to me.

I feel I have reached my limit with where we live.  When I got back, all I wanted to do was simple errands.  Yet nothing is simple around here.  We live off a main route, which is always busy.  About the only time there isn't serious traffic on it is midnight.  Did I mention we can hear the buses announcing their stops at like 6 am.

Fact of the matter is, we just live too close to the city.  The main street we live off of basically runs from a major highway right into Philadelphia....so it gets alot of traffic.  And people drive way too fast, don't stop at the lights, and overall it is bordering on some not so nice neighborhoods.  We might as well live in the city because it feels like the city.

I love our apartment/house we rent, well everything but the flooding basement which can't be good for a our health because the landlords let the water just sit down there until it drys itself.  But the rest of the place is gorgeous inside, everything new even appliances, big old windows, beautiful old victorian patio!  It's going to be very hard to find a place this pretty inside for the price we pay.

The benefits to living in the busy section we do is the rent is lower.  Then again aren't we wasting money continuously renting.  All our friends own houses and I feel it's time to jump in and be real home owners.   My man isn't exactly your average guy though he really doesn't care if he owns a home or not.  He isn't the handy man type at all, and would not want any parts of working on a house.  He likes the fact that landlords fix things. Anyway....

We even tossed around the idea of moving somewhere warm again, which my man kept talking about until he actually visited Florida.  And well he just didn't like it at all.   I've lived in Cali before and we both kind of agree it's too far from family.  He is from Long Island but prefers Pennsylvania.  I'd prefer living by the beach, but would pretty much live anywhere as long as it was nice, quiet, and not overcrowded. 

So it looks like the search will continue until we can find what we have in a nicer location! 

Monday, May 3, 2010

Monday Musings

Oh yes, it's Monday again....seriously where do the weekends go?  

I was thinking this morning if the government really wants to help our economy, why not implement a four day work week.  If companies feel it is necessary they could have employees work a few extra hours during the four days to make up for the time.  I just think people need more time to relax.  It just feels like so many people are stressed out these days, that they don't have enough time to relax, time to enjoy life, or spend with their families.  Something has to give, and somewhere along the way people need more time.

So....this Monday is a big change in our household, as my man started his new job today after being laid off for over five months.  It's a big adjustment for him and us.  Angel won't eat today, she is just laying around looking so sad.  You see she follows her daddy everywhere, if he walks out the door she sits waiting by the door for him.  It's nuts because she isn't like that with anyone else. 

And I'll admit I myself being unemployed enjoyed having his company because being at home all day by oneself can get very lonely because there is no interaction with others.  At least when people are at work they have work to keep them busy and coworkers to talk with.  

Although, it might feel less lonely if I had a house....when you own a house there is always work to be done, as opposed to renting.  Renting just feels impersonal.

Mega Millions is up to quite a few million, if only I could win the lottery.  I played Powerball last week when it peaked at 225 million but nothing.  And quite frankly I was confident I would win.  Then again I guess everyone is hopeful they will win. 

Yeah I know winning the lottery is never going to happen....but hey it's fun to dream occasionally right?   I just want my own house with a little land, enough money to take care of the people I love, and enough money to own a dog rescue.  I know money doesn't buy happiness but it does allow people to create a better world for themselves and others.  And that is one lesson you learn quickly upon being laid off.

Ahhhh....this is definitely one of those daydreaming Mondays.  So on that note I will leave you with one of my favorite quotes...."Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss, you'll land among the stars."

Sunday, May 2, 2010

A Beach Day

Nothing is more perfect then a beach day spent with the ones I love.

Anytime I spend a moment at the beach....it only strengthens my desire to live on the beach, or at least by the beach.  I used to live in San Diego, I worked a few blocks from the beach and spent most of my weekends gazing at the ocean.  To say I miss living in such a beautiful place is an understatement.  I miss the walks on the beach and watching the amazing sunsets every evening after work, the cottage beach houses, and the laid back lifestyle.

So why would I leave such a place....because home is where the heart is and my family they were still living on the east coast. 

At the moment we live about a hour and 40 minutes from the beach.  I can't complain because at least it's driveable but it's not the same as living in a beach town.  And the ride back home, driving through the city, the congestion, the pollution, the over crowdness, the noise, the traffic....it just makes me feel more and more that I should be living in a beach town again.  

Of course, living full time in a beach town is easier said than done, as jobs in beach towns aren't exactly easy to come by and prices of housing are usually very high.  So it's something that appears to be a big dream unless I somehow win the lottery. 

For now a day spent at the beach with loved ones is a dreamy day and something to look forward to every now and then!

Do you have a place where your soul feels most at home?  Or a place that evokes pure relaxation?  That is what the beach is to me.  It makes me happy, it enlightens my soul, and to be honest I don't need music, book, or anything while sitting on the beach.  The sound of the ocean and seagulls is perfect.  What place makes you feel that way?



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